So today i feel really bad in myself, people dont understand but living with depression, anxiety and an eating disorder, its hard. They tell you to just snap out of it, that makes you feel worse, people think of mental illness like its just a phase or something. they dont realise but its a part of me, i cant change that. I am currentley being seen by a doctor and in the process of being diognosed with social anxiety disorder, and whatever else they think is wrong with me.
Ive been going downhill latley, having taken two overdoses with in a week i got warned that if i continue to get worse then i may be sectioned again. Its not what i want to happen but i have no control. I just feel helpless and worthless, its horrible if i could choose to be ‘normal’ i probably would. My eating habbits aren’t getting any better either, to be honest my illness doesn’t define me but it makes me who i am, and i have no problem with what im doing to myself. I do wish everyone would justvleave me to get on with it, but aparently im not in my right state of mind to know whats best. Anyway rant over , until next time.